realization.

I had a major AHA moment today.
I'm sure like many of you the talk by President Uchtdorf has been on your mind.
It really was incredible.
I felt as if he was speaking right to me. just me & him face to face.

I went on a solo run this morning because my partner in crime had to work. I hadn't ran solo in awhile and I think it's exactly what I needed today, actually it was exactly what I needed today. I chose a route that I've been wanting to do since moving to Draper. It was a hard one but I knew I had trained long enough and could tackle it. I did & I was proud. very proud actually. I even fist pumped mid run and said yessss outloud after accomplishing it. In that moment I was purely happy. I had done something small in the mind of others but large to me.
I was beaming. I felt on top of the world. I was SO grateful for a healthy body and a body that I felt in total control of. Some people don't have that blessing and I have been running with them in mind. I felt blessed to be able to  come home to a husband who loves me and takes care of me. I felt inspired by random people I was passing because I was looking at them in a positive light. I thought about the gospel & how it really does help you to be the best you can. to reach your potential. I thought about the blessing of tithing, temples, & prayer.
I had a true runners high & nothing could go wrong.

I know the thoughts I had during my run can honestly be contributed to that talk.

I needed to hear every point he gave.

forget not:
1. to be patient with yourself
2. that some sacrifices are better than others
3. to be happy now
4. the why of the gospel
5. the Lord loves you.

i tend to focus on the future; figure out everything i can before it actually happens. even though i love surprises and feel like i'm spontaneous, there is always another step in the future that i'm looking forward to and i think thats why #3 hit home the most.  living in the moment. i think since i've been married my stress level has possibly gone up but eric is so good at helping me balance out, and hearing this made me realize it even more. life happens....and rolling with the punches with a positive attitude is a test itself. if i can remember to enoy the small things more--i know i'll be that much happier. I realized that during my run I was living in the moment. For heavens sake I was running....{hasn't always been my favorite}...and I was ENJOYING it.

i also loved point #1. judging our weaknesses against someone strengths. useless. women are the worst at comparing & judging, and then having self doubt & pity. myself included. i loved the comment {maybe it was in my head} that were ALL blessed with STRENGTHS & WEAKNESSES. i think this is where Relief Society truly shines because every lady can compliment the other and that is why it's such a large organization helping so many people.

no matter what faith you believe in, this talk was so inspiring. President Uchtdorf is so loving and has that fatherly figure that is approachable and endearing. he lives close to my parents and i remember seeing him on numerous occasions walking on the boulevard with his wife. for some reason i just think he really understand women {look at many of his previous talks} & it's probably because of his adorable wife. i don't know him personally but the fact that he goes on a "walk" is truly an example to me that he practices what he preaches, he enjoys the small things and does normal things just like any other person.

I'm glad I know I have a Father in Heaven that loves me & is patient with the process I call my life.